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~ 15th July ~

The first ever Monthsary with love on this day. So very very special to us both especially so 'cuz love didn't have an official one before.

I've been looking forward to this day because I've seen countless of pictures from friends, posting their monthly/annual anniversaries, celebrating their love for each other and wondered to myself many times, "Why would they want to celebrate so often, wouldn't it lose the meaning of a celebration?"

Now I know 'cuz people in love are just so, umm, excited to see each other that a monthly anniversary is just an excuse to go out of the way to try something new. For most, it is about eating good food every month, when that special number appears.

Even though I have to agree that indulging in good food every month is not a bad idea, especially when love likes to eat so much, I would prefer mixing it up with other stuff to do, just to make each one special and memorable to us. That is what is ultimately important to me, creating fond memories with each other.

Yup, but this very first month with love, I wanted to follow tradition strictly. Firstly, I wanted her to feel like she's being chased after by me. WHY? Because I think every girl deserves to be chased and I know I told her at the start that I will not want to chase a girl already, that's because I've been wounded so many times that I dare not put in too much to chase one and end up getting hurt again.

But now, it's different, because I know what I do will get appreciated and I am willing to reciprocate what love has given me since the trip we went together. To me, there is never a thing called 'holding back' when it comes to liking someone, and now loving someone. That's the reason why every single time I liked somebody and ended up empty handed, I got so hurt. To the point where I had strengthened myself so much that I don't feel much pain for the previous girl I liked when nothing came out of it. Kind of accepted how fate and destiny has planned it out for me.

I've always told my brothers, besties that I feel like I have so much to give and there's nobody on the receiving end. Now that there's you, and you bet I will give you all that I have to offer.

I have always visualised this glass of water inside me, a representation of what I can give to people I have liked. More or less as the stories go, the glass has been emptied, took a while to be refilled by myself and emptied again by the next one. Never once did someone pour that water back into the glass after it has been emptied. That is why I treasure this relationship so much, because now that glass is constantly replenished by you. And I feel really blessed that this relationship has been so mutual thus far, never a time did I feel that I am giving more than you.

Yep, alot of digression here, but if you have followed the story to this point, I'm gonna go back to the monthsary we had. So, as would a typical guy when chasing a girl, flowers are a necessary tool to win her heart. BUT OMG, WHY SO EXPENSIVE?! So after much deliberation, I made flowers instead of buying them and thankfully, love appreciated it more than real flowers! I guess effort is what counts and not the price. (obviously...)

She gave me this jar of her favorite chocolates to munch on at work and a really really long letter, and from now on shall be referred as "The Manuscript". Unfortunately, the contents shall not be revealed here. But I am so so so so so touched to have read it.

Looking forward to many more months ahead. Thanks love. =D

Awaiting love's confirmation on the Batam trip!